Of course I don't pretend to know what God thinks, but I do know what His Word says about His love for us and I feel compelled to share what I have felt Him saying to me...you see- God has been wooing me this year, in a way like never before- loving on me and speaking to me and encouraging me and He wants to do the same for you.
I hope you will hear His heart for you as you read this:
I see you...
I see you at 5:30am when you are struggling to get out of bed and get your family ready for the day.
I see you packing lunches and prepping breakfast and dinner and thinking about your sweet children upstairs still asleep, hoping that you are doing the right thing by working.
I see you and the care you take packing backpacks and leaving notes in lunches because you are hoping that note will feel like a gigantic hug from a Mama who misses her kiddos during the day.
I see you at work, looking at pictures on your desk, on your phone and laughing to yourself at the latest antics of your little boy.
I see you picking up your kids, that first hour being tense- you wishing everything could just go perfectly, and them transitioning and feeling out of sorts and you wanting to get homework done, dinner made and when you snap at the boys, I see you feeling like a failure.
I see you stopping and hugging them, putting down the burnt dinner and pulling out the cereal and playing Leggo's in your work clothes and I want to say- "Atta girl! You know what's most important!"
I see you staring at them while they sleep, loving them so fiercely and deeply.
I see you at church on Sunday, staring at the bulletin and seeing that you can't make the Mama bible studies because they are during the day and how you don't want to go to an evening study anyways because every night belongs to those babies.
I see you staring at piles of laundry and wanting to cry.
I see you feeling alone a lot and wanting more connections.
I see you wanting to enjoy each moment with your kids but also needing friends and some time for yourself.
I see your sacrifice.
I see you and I want you to know that I am proud of you.
As proud of you as you are when your 6 year old hits a home run, or when your 3 year old starts to dress himself.
I am proud of your hard work, the details you put into your homemaking, and the ways in which you try to live for me in the workplace.
I am proud of you for watching your finances and budgeting and looking for ways to save money so that one day you can reduce your hours.
I am proud of you for working late some nights so that you can attend a field trip or earn extra money for school shopping.
I am proud of you not for what you DO though, but for YOUR HEART behind your actions.
I want you to know, to REALLY KNOW, that I have created these children with YOU in mind. YOU are EXACTLY what they need!
Never put yourself down for what you can/cannot do for these babies, but remember that I will fill in the gaps with my Holy Spirit and I will find people to help you when you cannot be there.
Your job is to HELP THEM SEE THE RELATIONSHIP THAT YOU AND I HAVE AS BEING MOST IMPORTANT.
Your job is to let them WATCH YOU depend on me, so that they can see that:
THEIR MAMA LOVES JESUS
THEIR MAMA NEEDS JESUS and that-
JESUS IS ALWAYS FAITHFUL TO THEIR MAMA.
And when they look back, they will remember how much YOU LOVED ME and LOVED THEM in every crazy, quiet, frustrating, and joyful moment.
They will remember the prayers before leaving the house, the bible stories in the car, the lessons on forgiveness after a frustrating conversation, the Jesus Love Me's being sung over their sleepy bodies as they drift off at night...
They will see these things and they will want to know me more and that is all that matters dear Working Mama-Daughter of the King-Precious Child of Mine.
(side-note: God's love letter to Stay at Home Moms is much the same as above and remember- ALL MOMS ARE WORKING MOMS- this blog is for ALL MOMS, but it does specifically speak to the Christian Mom who works outside the home and is maybe struggling with this identity...)