He is Jealous for Me



Today my face is twitching. Like for real, I am afraid someone will think I am a chipmunk when I talk to them, munching on an acorn:) It is WEIRD. It is stress and it is from lack of time with God. I am sure of it. My weekend was great- time with hubby, sleepover for my 6 year old, baseball, church and some good downtime by myself. I even watched a movie! But, something is wrong as I start this week.

It started yesterday after the baseball game and we had some time before church (we go to church at night). And I started panicking thinking about the week starting. I went into psycho-Mama-gotta-get-it-all-done mode. Laundry was being folded like I was on SPEED. I was picking up, de-cluttering, folding, hanging up, running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Side-note: my husband is off today and offered to help me with all of this- but I took it upon myself to get it all done because I am a bit of a control freak and want it done Sunday night (that is whole 'nother blog issue).

I went to church, enjoyed the service, but when it was time to sleep, I felt anxious and overwhelmed. Why?

I had not taken my Sabbath with the Lord.

I planned, I prepped, I organized, I loved, I laughed, I had fun, I supported and I connected with my family- we had a great weekend-but I did not sit with my Father...He was there waiting for me, but I ignored Him for what I thought HAD TO GET DONE.

And although I went to church, meant the words when I sang and prayed over my boys and with my husband before bed, I missed out on my time with God. 

And the words from a song I sang at church rang loudly in my heart this morning- "He is Jealous for Me..." and my stress started to melt away. I knew I had to take a 15 minute break from work and write this blog post. God was speaking to me and I hope He speaks to you too...

My God longs to be with me and my spirit longs to be with Him. When I am operating in my flesh, I bank my peace on temporary things; my house being clean, my laundry being done, my groceries bought, etc.. And even when those things are DONE (for the most part), I can still be in that pit of overwhelming anxiety- because I have soul anemia- I am spiritually bankrupt and I am empty.

Thank you God for reminding me that I need to spend time with you. When I get to the end of myself, He is there and He is faithful and He is waiting.

Listen to the words of this song and breathe deep. He loves you. He is jealous for you. His love is like a hurricane, you are a tree, bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.

How GREAT ARE HIS AFFECTIONS FOR YOU. OH HOW HE LOVES YOU sweet Mama.

How He Loves Us- David Crowder Band

"How He Loves"(originally by John Mark McMillan)

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us, oh,
Oh, how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us, oh,
Oh, how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If his grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don't have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about the way...

He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us...
Oh, how He loves us...
Oh, how He loves us.